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Speechless.

It is time to just sit back and watch what all this will leads to. A very bad thing in life is you are not aware of what you want and what to do about this life. Complicated.

It is never easy adapting to new life - new routine, new responsibility, new scope, new field, new people. The stress is always there during all these first times or new experiences. Some are long awaited ones, while others are experienced with minor steps.

Adapting to new responsibility is no fun. And things get harder. Entering housemanship is one stress, but entering mo-ship is totally at another level.

Suddenly a lot of people are looking at you for answers.

Suddenly a lot of people are expecting a lot from you.

And suddenly you have a lot to protect.

I know there are a lot of hoohahs from ppl working in other departments, thinking that being an ortho MO is the easiest job in the hospital. There is always a stigma. A stigma that ortho MOs usually lack of basic medical knowledge, that they could not manage simple medical conditions, that they always post up the wrong cases, mess up with the informations needed to the anaesthetist, always refering patients to the medical departments and etc.

If you sit down and have all sorts of MOs on a table, I bet all of them have some story to tell about ortho MOs.

Well.

I do understand that things happen.

I do understand that sometimes we are too ‘bony’.

I do understand that when time goes by, the less used medical knowledge became blur and it is clouded from our sight.

Friends said that I do not have any reason to be stress when I’m an ortho MO. But dear friend, I’m stress because I care. And I can live with that stress.

Currently having my end posting leave.

2 years of hardship. I’m happy that it ends well. At least at the end of these 2 years, I do not feel tired, angry, or unsatisfied but exactly the opposite, I felt happy, contented, satisfying. This means that I actually worked well, that I spent my energy and time doing something which matters, and hopefully all those that I have touched is healthy and living.

Chose orthopedic as my future carrier. The reason is not because I think orthopedic is easy, but in contrary to others, I think that it is challenging, more practical, with very significant outcome, and of course, a very satisfying job as well. Not to mention that it is always doing what you see, and physics has always been one of my favorite subject.

And lucky enough, I got into the department. Starting on 17th of Sept.

Hopefully I perform well.

And hopefully, I’m gifted.

Thus the new category in the blog - as an MO.

Got this ND filter not long ago. Think that it still works best in the morning but am not free to go around taking pictures yet. Here are some sneak peak of my still ‘testing’ period.

Noticed some white balance problem with the pictures as well. Will choose more carefully the next time. Adios!

Had this problem quite some time ago. But only managed to sit down and really surf the solution out yesterday.

This happens kinda often. Usually after installing some new program for example photoshop CS3 or microsoft office, the internet connection goes off at the next reboot. And the small tv at the lower right of the screen shows 2 networks - the one which the com is already on and another ‘unidentified network’.

Found this easy solution which works like a charm.

Open CMD command prompt. Type in ‘delete route 0.0.0.0′.

And wallaaaa..

No more internet problems.

So much for a geek.

Today is actually the day which will determine where I will go, what I will be, and what lies ahead of me for the 2 coming years, or probably the rest of my life.

I hope the decisions made by my bosses are correct. Maybe at this point I’m still unsure of whether I had want the correct things for myself and my life, but I hope the world works it own way in showing me what I am capable of. Like every stories out there, my story will have me as the center point.

Let’s hope for the best.

And for a selfish human being like me, may my choices and wishes be granted.

And in a bigger picture, may you all help me to make it happen.

Sadhu.