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Seriously, no joke, super stress when people call me that.

First of all, I think I don’t fit that title yet. Secondly, come on lah, I don’t know about other field but seriously this is so big, and even thou I graduated (actually graduation is this Friday), it doesn’t mean I possess the required experience or knowledge to really live up to that name (that’s what I felt personally -lah).

MY seniors had been laughing at me and welcoming me to the club. That I would soon be like a zombie hanging around, being scolded, ridicule and laugh at. Zombie who doesn’t have time to eat, stand a lot and always worry about not being competent enough.

And all those factors make this 1-3 months of holiday a bit hard to enjoy.

My mind starts to wonder whether I would want to start that life fast or try to prolong it to the maximum. I do have the fear of registering myself too early, and later on get posted before Puasa. That would be a disaster. A disaster that I don’t know how to avoid!

Most of the seniors or current House Officer says that there will be no more free time in life, zero social life, zero eating time, loads of standing time and run around time. I believe in what they told me. I agree that there will be no more student life, no more relaxing time (especially in the first few years) as I’ll be busy sucking in knowledge and experience, busy adapting to the system and busy upgrading my brain RAM and brain space and THAT makes me think that this holiday is really very very important!

I remembered envying my friends who graduated few months ago from HUKM. And now, they are working already! So fast! 2 months only! Gosh, 2 months fly just like that, and I want my 2 months / or at least 3 months (due to Raya this year) to be good, intensive and meaningful and most importantly, PUAS!

Yes, I’m not going to shake legs, I’m going to kick ass. Whose - I don’t know; where - I don’t know, but I need to rest ACTIVELY.

The need of a list to constantly remind me that this kind of free time will not come again. I need a plan.

I think the first step would be to make my parents understand that this will be the only big free time left that I’m going to have. So hopefully they are going to approve me for going here and there with friends, approve all my trips, approve all my greed for gadgets, granting my wishes. LOL.

I seriously pray and hope that they could understand that. (Will tell them to read this post later). My wish list would not involve any trips to oversea or anything by flight, just around Malaysia and meet up with friends who I lost contact with and meeting new ones whom I think is interesting. And maybe go around different states hunting for food and sceneries and etc. H1N1 is not really helping on that but anyway, it is still Malaysia and I think I would be okay.

If that can be done, I think my holiday would be good enough, and I wouldn’t regret while looking back.

Currently, what I’m busy-ing with.

1. Finished with invitation card designing and getting them tomorrow.
2. Getting ready for graduation.
3. Packing, double check on souvenirs, double check on books, weight.
4. Gotta distribute stuffs to people who can help me carry.
5. Plan for Moscow trip. Going there on the 1st.

AND THE MOST IMPORTANT…..

6. PRAY THAT I WOULDN’T KENA LELONG TO OTHER STATE WHILE APPLYING FOR POSTING!

p/s - sorry to friends, now I know why you all scolded me when I say you will di-lelong to ulu places.