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What I’ve got for becoming a so-so judge. Even thou I cabut the closing ceremony and big family photo session, they still gave me this :)

the fact that I’m in my 2nd posting.

I’m happy that I still wake up in the morning wishing that I could do some good today.

I’m happy that I still could stand there and ask how are you to my patient each day.

I’m happy that I actually have these thoughts that this all is a happy start of a day.

Despite the fact that I have things to do,

I’m happy I go to clinic and see more people.

I’m happy I’m picking up things.

I’m happy that I come back and I would want to revise things that I read and learned.

Despite the fact that social life is given a big discount.

I’m happy to learn how to deal with myself.

I’m happy some people still support this backbone of mine.

I’m happy that it is actually not that hard to take the first step.

Despite the fact that all my theories that I developed in the past few years didn’t really stay in my mind anymore,

I’m happy that I’m actually more or less doing what I wanted myself to be.

I’m happy that I still have a certain power and influence over my own mind.

I’m happy I’m shaping something different.

So, it is not that bad after all. I think I have my own plan already.

The main reason I had wanted to be in KL the previous weekend was to witness the hot air balloon festival. But it turned out to be a side dish as more interesting things happened.

Started off with Friday dinner of a very sinful Japanese buffet.

Went with a colleague and Cyrena. I was never good in eating but I guess both of them fully unleashed their belts and stomach sphincter. Ate like nobody’s business! I think they served good food. And the best is it is unlimited, and you just order whatever you feel like having on the menu.

But of course, for every 100gm which you left over, you have to pay RM5.

The next day went out with bro to Petaling Street for breakfast and jalan jalan.

This time he introduced me to some good food instead. Haha. It is good to see how he grows up, and I guess it is the same way for him to see how I grow up as well.

And later on meet up with Phooiyan for chit chats the whole afternoon. Err.. for the first time.

And at night went to Putrajaya for this.

See the darth wader.

And lots of firework!

And the next day went out with Cyrena to get her precious.

Took some time before choosing one. It really stands out from the others. Constantly moving around and ’standing’ up, climbing up the side of the cage, very abnormal for a rabbit.

But I guess abnormality is what we like?

And went to the mother of all flee market, just adjacent to Petaling Street.

The entrance.

You will be surprised of what they sell. From used underwear to stolen handphones. From milk powder to porn. From used newspaper to broken light bulbs. You name it, and it is there. It is as if people are selling whatever things that they can lie their hands on.

But if your eyes are sharp enuf, you might find something worth the bargain. Cyrena spotted one Amcorp mall flee market seller wondering around there. I guess it is an easy business to buy and sell. LOL.

We spotted 2 original phones, blackberry curve and nokia E71, both stolen/grabbed/whatever, selling at RM700. It was a bit chipped, but I think our conscious is doing some good. Never buy stolen goods.

It is nice walking around Petaling Street in the morning. You see life, and nice unique life.

Imagine how disappointed we were when we failed to wake up for the next day’s hot air balloon fun fly. Missed the morning round, and the evening round was canceled because of bad weather.. Sigh.

Conclusion, didn’t even see those balloons in the sky!

Mana itu balloon?

Anyway, since I was quite happy with the long fireworks on Saturday night, this trip is still worthwhile.

KL. Love the lights.

When will it be my time to fly my kite?

By the way, iPhone is back in my life. Not the old one. But the new 3GS. Wakaka.

It must have been a wednesday, my friend ajak to watch this local jazz band perform in Geographer cafe. Hehe, since I got nothing much to do, I think it is a good thing to go have a look.

Heard that this is the best offered in Geographer. But RM 28 for a pint?? Hmmm… Maybe next time.

Well, too bad I don’t have the ear for jazz. It all sounded kinda identical. But I did enjoy the atmosphere and beer. Wakaka.

Told Cyrena about the band, it seems that they were doing quite well in their field.

Lost it in the OT changing room. Damn. In a ‘now you see it now you don’t’ fashion. Too fast too furious.

Anyway, I’m not really sad about losing a machine, but it is the things inside that I felt sad tat I no longer have them. All the pictures, all the contacts, all the smses.

So, I guess I have to start everything again.

Damn it.

But sometimes it is a need to start anew.

No choice, so be it.

Blackberry, here I come :)

Had been running here and there these few weekends. Mainly because that fella is back and mainly because I got ffk by somebody in KL. Anyway, some of the snap shots to roughly record what I did over the weekends.

Met up with Ryan, and he brought me to taste this XO Loh Mee.

Very nice! Can really taste the XO.

And the 2 of us can’t manage to finish that. Too much.

And one of the day a few of us went to Chan’s house to bai nian. The only bai nian to a friend’s house that I have (excluding eric’s one).

Suddenly I feel that I’m very old. Gulp*

And most of the weekends I was in Kluang to meet this fella.

The only heng dai who I can think of in my life. Too bad. I should have more Hengtai.

Anyway, he brought his lao po back this time so of course la I need to be there.

Well, usually when both of us are in Kluang, we usually carry out activities which we repetitively do over the years -

Like going out for breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner and supper.

Like going to temple and eat vegetarian food.

Like me standing and looking at him praying and walking up and down with the whole family.

Like going out to drink.

Like sitting in his house and watch astro with his cousin brother, niece, father, brother and etc.

Like walking on Kluang street with him and his brother.

Like saying those crap which is sooooo meaningless that I don’t know why we said that.

Like making everybody else pissed and get happy about it.

Aiyah.. next meeting will be on Oct d. Hopefully I saved enough money to go Melbourne. Woohooo…

My cranium, houses my brain,
which is so distorted,
like a blur picture,
taken with unfocused lens,
with dirty sensors.

My brain, houses my mind,
which is so clustered it never shoots straight,
which is so active it flickers,
which is so wild it fails,
the very core of me.

My mandible, houses my tongue,
which today,
fails to perform what it is meant to perform,
for sometimes, it deliver things which is incoherent to my brain wave,
incoherent to my impulses,
incoherent to my heart.
And i wonder,
whether it truly reflects what i want,
or what i really need.

My mediastinum, houses my heart,
which constricted so much it is painful,
more pain for every decisions i made,
more pain for every steps i take.

If the soul is determined by this,
so whether a distorted mind,
a clustered brain,
an auto-pilot tongue,
and a constricted heart,
could produce a perfect being?

For I wasn’t perfect,
and never tried to be perfect.
For i never practiced what I have been taught,
I never show myself what i’ve been shown,
I failed to uphold my own backbone.
I failed to create myself.

Always ask why, as the solutions came at the very end of all analysis.
What to do next?

I don’t know.

Maybe,
learn to find myself, again.

Trying to blog from my iPhone. Hmm.. Had a talk with Aslanif and i guess i should utilise my iPhone back to the max again!

Went to Klang to visit aunties and cousins.

And again, lots of food.

Morning, had Klang bak kut teh. LOL.

And later drove all the way up to Penang.

But quite nice to have meet this cool dude on that crazy bike.

Maybe one day I want to be like him!

Country road~