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To light a light, it to cast a shadow…

It is inevitable that when you wanna be something good or do something right, you might end up being partially bad or did something bad somehow in the process.

Each of us grow up knowing this world from one side or another. Some think that the world is good, while others think that the world is bad. But I found something else. It is called, the condition.

People do a lot of things because the conditions allow them to. Each of the feelings can be tested. You say you love somebody, that is because the conditions were arranged that there is only one person for you to love, and that only happens if that person loves you back. IF the condition is that you have a lot of people to love, and everybody love you back just as much, then you will have problem loving only one.

People think that they have strong principles. But the principles are often untested. You say that you would not do this or that, or you would do this or that when you face with that condition, but those statements are unproven. How can one knows what to do when he/she didn’t experience it first hand?

If a cup of water is put in front of you, added with sugar, salt, pepper,vinegar and another 5 unknown ingredients. Before drinking it, will you say that the water is sweet? or perhaps sour? or salty? Will you be able to say that you will only taste sweet when you drink it? or only sour?

Most of the time, only the one who stood, and experience that condition, is worthy to talk about their principles and experience. Because their principles are tested. Hypothesis is proven. And thus, only those people, have the rights to tell you that ‘I told you so!’

Well, this is not for me. But after 7 years here, I think some people are born to make things bad, or make life miserable for other people.

My group had been paired up with another group since 1st year. Occasionally, we would have some of the classes together, and that day would end up like the worse day ever on earth.

It makes me understand that not everybody is educated the same way. Even thou you are in a med school it doesn’t mean that you know anything about politeness and culture. These people are rude, brainless and no culture at all. The sound wave of their unknown language to use could reach so high that some of us could have headache after a day of class with them. Not to mention the sound of them banging the table, talking on the phone (when the doctor is explaining in front), making stupid useless comments and jokes.

There are times that we had try to tell them to tune down, and even took action by informing to the dean that we would not want to share any class with them. But it seems that our university is too ‘business-minded’ to care. They are like monkeys that could not be tamed. This is why, during classes that we have to share a classroom with them, we secretly pray that the teacher who conduct the class is the strictest and baddest ass in the department. That way, they would suffer!

Not to mention that they would come to class 2 hours late! It would make my day if they are told to go home. I would definitely buy my classmates beer if the teacher could use the F word but too bad they are too kind.

I start to wonder if these people even have brain -_-’

Remember the ‘friend’ who I didn’t wake him up in my previous post?

There is a system with him that makes me don’t like him. Let’s see how evil I am:

During 3rd year, he would come to class, complaining about getting sick and would like to go home earlier. He would always ask the teacher for permission to do so. And most of the time the teachers are just too kind to even ask more. For me, all these are bullshit. My Christians friends in my class even say that I’m so bad for not showing any care.

Each day, he would come to class, and my friends would ask him about his health, give him advice, trying to help him in this and that. But I sat silent. Until one day, the below conversation took place (I will refer him as J in this conversation).

Blablablablabla…. (Conversation before this is just something like below)
Friend : “J, if you have problem sleeping at night and feel tired during the class, try to drink a cup of warm milk, it will help!”
J : “Ok, no problem.”
Friend : “Try not to sleep during the class, we tell you all these because we care for you.”
Me : “Ops, don’t use the word ‘we’. J, I’m going to be honest to you that I don’t care for you, at all.”
Friends : (everybody silent).

3 years after the above conversation, they know I was correct.

J would ask for earlier dismiss from the class at least twice for each rotations, using various excuses. His favorite excuse would be ‘the house pipe burst excuse’. According to that, if not mistaken, the pipe burst around 5 times a month, and it only burst during the starting of the rotation.

And today we had a class nearer to the center, instead of the far away hospital that I blogged about 2 days ago. He went home earlier giving another kind of excuse the day before and he didn’t ask about what to study the next day. In the end, he end up in the far away hospital instead of the one that we are suppose to be in.

He called me in the morning
J : “Bing! Why you didn’t told me that it is in Kim (the place we are in) today?”
Me : “Why you didn’t ask?”
J : “Haichooooo.”

He didn’t came to class at all today, saying that there is an accident on the way and he got to the place late at 11.30.

In the lecture, he saw me.
J with angry tone : “Bing! Why you didn’t told me man….”
Me : “Do I look like your baby sitter?”
Me again : “Do you need a baby sitter?”
Me again : “DO you f***ing need a BABY SITTER?”
J : “…………”

Sorry, abit emo today. But I’m seriously so not SYOK with him. Duh…

I shall study more and be a better doctor. I could do so much difference just by stopping people from going to them. Grrr….

Had my O&G cycle for almost 1 week already. Don’t know whether any of you know about this Russian culture or not, but I personally think that this is quite ‘dreadfully’ romantic.

This is the maternity ward. And you can see there are so many scribblings on the building and even on the road!

Even thou in modern days, husbands are recommended to follow the their pregnant wives and be there during the time they deliver, it is still not widely practised here. So usually the mothers of the pregnant women or their husbands would stand on this road and wait for them to carry the newborn to show it to them from the windows. You can see some of them waiting here in the above pictures.

And of course, the husbands would scribble on the road, something like ‘Oliya, thanks for the lovely baby’ and etc.

Another work of the crazy happy new fathers… Well. I can always imagine how happy they are after reading what they wrote… :)

Today I woke up earlier than I expected because I slept earlier yesterday. Still got the time to cook some instant noodles and made ‘cham beng’ before I wear my jacket to start my journey to the hospital.

I walked against the cold morning wind.

I cross the road, thinking that today I’ll nead to at least read a few pages of OHMS in the bus to revise some of the forgotten science.

And I saw the bus that I was waiting. No.15 it says on top. And down there it read “? ????”, meaning to the depot. And as far as I know the place where I waited for bus to come back from the hospital is considered a depot because there are always a lot of buses stopping there.

I found my usual favorite spot on the bus (2nd roll from behind).

I took out my OHMS.

I started to read about beningn positional vertigo…

Proceed to Menierre’s…..

and then is the anatomy of nose….

And I notice why the bus is not taking a right turn? (which usually it is suppose to) Arghh!! Why it is not taking a right turn? Why no right turn?!?!??!?!

I look around anxiously.

I got down on the very next stop!

Unknown territory!!!

I almost reach the fly-over to REAL supermarket!

Damn! I don’t really want to be late for this class because grandma said that those that failed to show up during the morning order will be considered late for 1 hour!

7 years here and this kind of things still can happen! Wtf!!!!

And I have another 30 minutes to travel from the place I got down!

I asked for a taxi (want to see the price only) and he told me it will cost 150 rubles to the hospital. I made him the ‘go to hell’ face.

And I took another bus moving down the road, and took the normal No.15 bus to the hospital, this time bearing in mind to ask the conductor first before I get on it.

And I was 5 minutes late! (despite all the traveling) But late is late!

The good news is, grandma didn’t notice that I wasn’t there! She didn’t count us today!!! Woohooo..

p/s: To know who is grandma, please read this previous post. By the way, grandma is teaching us lotsa important things that I think make me a better doctor. So, cheers to grandma for letting us off at 1.30pm today! (after seeing my classmates pissed off faces).

Saturday in hospital, it is all very quiet…

Have a nice weekend! Not like us, need to study!

p/s… Arghhh.. mouse is so irritating!!!!

First time again..

Well.. For example.. Today is my first time 24th birthday. LOL. Oh, happy birthday to shealing as well. Same day. Hehe.. She is still single and available, anybody interested can ask for more details here later.

And, today I gotta go to class (going to class on my birthday, no big deal), and because of my birthday Nizhny don’t have class on Saturday (lucky you joethew) and today is the first day I observe cryosurgery! (how cold and cool is that!)

Grandma came in this morning after the meeting saying that she has a surgery to do. And told us to get ready a few things for her.

About the surgery, it was a case of pancreatonecrosis. Before this I read that most of the cryosurgery is used in oncology, but I think the indication is getting wider now. The operation lasted for like 4 hours. Most of the time was taken in mobilizing the omentum and duodenum. The real cryosurgery part lasted least than 10 seconds. HAHAHA..

Tissue destroyed on contact with the probe is removed by phagocytic white blood corpuscles in a natural bodily process.

During the surgery everybody seems to be shouting, not because of the tense environment or what, but all of those loud conversations were made because of our beloved ‘grandma’ who can’t listen properly. I think the younger surgeons felt stress working with her. Sometimes I really REALLY wonder whether she chose to ignore, or she just filter the conversation, or she merely has bad hearings. She has her ears inside her surgical cap all the time..

But no doubt, during her younger years, she must have been a very successful surgeon.

Okay.. class ended at 2pm.. will blog about my day when I come back later. Ciao!

Today is my first day for my surgery cycle. And my teacher is……. -_-’ Oobasang…

I hope she proves me wrong but seriously, I don’t know how to deal with her. She seems to filter up things that we say and only listen to the things that she WANTS to listen. Great eh?

But don’t get me wrong, I have no doubt about her knowledge but I’m just wondering how much of it would I get to suck out before I finish up my second last surgical cycle in this Uni.

Everybody seems to talk louder because she has some mild listening problem, or she has not?

Complicated grandma :)

Wow, it had been 4 days since my last post! This is really weird. Sorry for the lack of updates! So this post is really going to be a long one, summarizing what I had done the past few days and at the same time, just like I mentioned in the title of this post, today is the -1 (minus 1)day before I start my journey to India tomorrow.

As you all know, I had started my practicals in Kluang Hospital. I had been in the pediatric department for 4 days (since Monday). The head of the department (The Boss) is a strict doctor, but he is also (what I think he is) mischievous. I enjoyed this 4 days a lot because:

1. I got to know new friends (my ‘groupmates’) Thamila and Farah, met up with old friends and etc.
2. Friendly MO’s. Aih.. It is so nice -lah when you have them talking to you like friends.
3. The Boss who I come to like. Don’t know why. LOL.
4. New stuffs learn. Peanut is officially upgraded! This is very important!
5. Had a lot of fun when I’m in the ward and have access to a lot of things. LOL, like play with the touch light, press the antiseptic soap (they smell really nice). Eh, don’t say I’m crazy or what, everything was fun, go ask Thamila.
6. Walk here and there with the white coat.
7. Since I’m in pediatric, play with the kids. Try to irritate them and make them cry.
8. Argue about science and physiology with groupmates.

BUT, I’m leaving for another posting tomorrow. I know I would be back again in August but my ‘groupmates’ wouldn’t be there anymore, so.. it is still a BIG sigh.

I so wish that I could have time for tomorrow’s clinic in the afternoon but it is impossible. LOL (lucky that I haven’t got questioned by The Boss yet.)

Don’t misjudge this simple tag, it gives me a lot of access to a lot of places. Haha. I went to Jabatan Kesihatan with this tag on. You get things done faster.

I watched this yesterday night. Well, no comment. Politic is dark.

And today I sent Rathiga home. Hahaha. She was so surprised?? Well, it is really quite a long way, I wonder how she can bear with the long bus ride from her house. Really respect her more now -lah.

This is really a long way to Kahang, and the road is small, and some of the cars are going really fast!

Rathiga’s mum prepared us this. Hehe. Actually I didn’t intend to have lunch in her house, but feel a bit bad if I didn’t go in and greet her parents, so end up having lunch there as well.

Keke. This is still at her house, eating on banana leaves.

So, roughly that’s all about the past 4 days. Of course there are other stuffs like meeting up with friends, some yumcha sessions and magic playing time with Peitong but they are categorized under daily activities. LOL.

Gotta go start packing now! Wish me luck!

p/s I kept on telling people I’ll be going for 3 weeks only. But actually, it is a 4 weeks trip! Lasting 29 days!

Kidding only. Happy day actually. My friends graduated today. I’ll let the pictures say the words.

First the MD’s..

Argh.. 10 more months. 10 more months of knowledge sucking..

The dentists. They came to this place the same time with me but graduate 1 year earlier. So lucky for them to have me as camera-man! Who is going to take my picture next year then?

One more one more, this time the whole class of dentistry. From left dr. sarchit, dr. mouse, dr. john, dr. ah dung, dr. quan, dr. koshn and dr. khaier. Tired of repeating so many ‘doctors’. All potential free tooth extraction. For me only!

Sorry.. I just need to put this picture up -lah! People, this is my private dentist, Mouse deska..

Group picture. Don’t know how to describe.

This one better. Heads from left, me, wi, dr. wantsien, dr. koshn, jean and joshua.

People, people, more people. Doctors, doctors, more doctors..

Okay.. One last pictures. Most of the others that I haven’t put up here is of me individually with lengluis (hot chicks) and lengzais (handsome guys). I still got Surgery exam on the 27th! So hopefully I post up more photos after my exam.

Good bye my friends! (Buggers that didn’t stay back to wait for my graduation next July) and I should probably put a sad song here. Argh! After exam!

p/s: I want ah dung’s jumping pics.. please pass to me to be publish. hehe.

Well, there are few things to blog about. But let’s do it one by one. First, I had my orthopedics exam today!

1. Injury of elbow joint.
2. Basic principle of open fracture.
3. A scenario of femur diaphysis fracture.
4. Rupture of Achilles’ tendon.

Kinda’ okay for me actually. Don’t have much problem answering to the teacher. But I didn’t slept well yesterday, I hope I can do some studying before hitting bed today.

Got to know darrenmagic from yim’s blog yesterday. He guided me to this forum and I learned 2 new tricks in few minutes! Managed to record it down. Have a look!

p/s: This is no camera trick or anything. Real hard magic. Haha.

p/s2: It is a 1.9mb video, so for friends that have internet that counts by bytes, becareful!