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Playing in back ground - ”Skillet - Comatose”

In a semicomatose state post call. Not a bad one but just a bit tired a bit early of the die, with some underlying medical condition going on my arms and legs.

Anyway, bearable. Nothing serious.

In order to start a crap post, I gotta be in a crappy mood I guess.

It is funny, how sometimes a way you put ur sentence, and it makes all the difference. Each time we want to say something, that split second before pouring out all our ideas and logics, if used in a better way, would really make a difference.

But I wonder, whether it is the trend to be good going old, or is it that everybody likes to be a bad ass, or wants to be a bad ass because bad ass generally don’t give a f too much about everything.

I think I’m a bit benign to be a bad ass, as much as I try to be one, this ass doesn’t form properly.

From time to time I take more than a second to think of what I would want to say, and most of the time, end up saying nothing at all.

Or maybe I operate under a very benign system.

Shit, am I changing back to introvert or what.

Duh.

Paid 2 Ringgit for car park, 7 Ringgit for entrance fee, and I’m already in the zoo, ready to shoot headshots.

Basically I think the collections are good. With an emphasize of species of kancils and deers, and surprisingly more tigers than national zoo!

Since my zoo frenzy wasn’t quite over yet, plus I visited the crocodile farm with very close contact to birds and etc, this visit to the zoo didn’t really wow me much.

I went around 4pm, hoping that the animals would wake up from their afternoon nap, but too bad, most of them are still napping. Grrr..

However, have a look at what I’ve got.

The birds collection is good. But I have the fences. The openings are SO SMALL! It is like not bigger than 2cm x 4cm. Too tight lah, and my lens can’t really focus properly. Grrr.

The glass panes aren’t clean properly. Wish large patches of whites which I don’t know is due to what. Making photography a pain in the ass.

And I have to take a pic of this Iguana. Shit. They let it lie around freely at the area where people are suppose to put their hands when they look into the pond to see what is there. I seriously got a fright that the f word almost flew out from my mouth. So damn ugly.

Cute red panda. To balance back that ugly iguana’s aura up there.

Another cute creature.

And I’m happy I capture some of the kings of the forest.

I think I generally like predators more. Hmm :)

A well spent 600 Ringgit for a 55-200mm Tamron right?

New posting is no joke. It is something all over again, if not everything. And imagine that we all have to face it 6 times these 2 years. Just when you get a bit comfortable with the people you work with, you move on, to another part of the small world (which dominated by the word hospital), and to another bunch of unfamiliar faces.

Anyway, there are some plans going on, but mostly trying to maximize my time usage. Plans are all but plans if it is not carried out. Chinese New Year is around the corner, so am betting much on that as this is the first Chinese New Year in Malaysia since 2002, and I’m going to tackle it with my Canon 40D. Hopefully more nice pictures coming up.

People had been asking me why am I so hardworking in maintaining this blog.

First of all I like photography, so I need a platform to show the things I take. And what’s better than a place where you can show and earn at the same time. Planning for something better and earning more. Hehe.

Secondly it is because I like to pour out. So I talk lotsa craps and it is therapeutic, not for you who read, but for me who release stress.

And thirdly, it is always fun to look back at how silly I was. In a way or multiple ways.

Hmm.. Thinking about changing that header. But it is a memorial of me in Volgo. Kinda feel bad if I take that down. Will wait till better portraits coming out.

Currently there are few things that I want to do at my current mind state.

1. Would want to get out of Melaka badly. To some places wide and nice, and breathe some authentic air.
2. The 1st wish makes me want to visit Putra Jaya at night.
3. The 1st wish makes me want to climb Tabur Hill.
4. The 1st wish makes me want to go Lata Kinjang.
5. The 1st wish makes me want to climb Broga Hill.
6. The 1st wish makes me want to go Cameron.

So this will stay here for some time till I can cancel them out one by one :)

I might start a new page on what I had achieve. Maybe it would be interesting to keep track of what I want and what I’ve got or did. Hmm..

Hopefully CNY’s leave is going to be a great one :)

Sorry for the long hiatus without any post. Had been busy and am happy that I survived my first ortho oncall. It was almost nightmare. Note the word ‘almost’.

Anyway, Cheryl came to visit me last weekend. And me as the 5 month old pseudo malaccan, brought her family and her around this small town.

On the first day, I woke up early and manage to get some morning view of the town, as warm up.

If you are truly melaka people, try to guess where this above pic is taken. Haha.

The entrance to the red town at 8.30am in the morning. Very peaceful and full of those ‘morning’ feel. I don’t know what I’m talking about.

They arrived around noon, and I brought them to Jonker street for some durian chendol and rendang mee at shop no.88. They seem to like the food, those kind of food that I like.

And we had a walk and visiting shops along Jonker street. It was noon, hot, but that was the first time I actually have a look at what they are selling inside those shops (usually just walk by).

Some random paparazzi frenzy.

Brought them to eat Asam Pedas in Kota Laksamana after that. No pictures taken. Was day dreaming :)

The next day, woke up and brought them to You Ee for breakfast. Later on visited A Famosa and those area around that.

Lunch was in Makko. Again, no pics because I was day dreaming. The heat is too much to bear. However, they certainly like that sago dessert with lotsa gula melaka.

Went back for nap, and afternoon, when I was on the way to fetch them out for dinner, I saw this.

So many people playing kites! One day, I will fly mine, with my wishes written on the kite. Hehe. I bought one half a month ago and it is still inside my room, awaiting time for departure.

Sigh.

Dinner was in Portuguese Settlement for seafood.

Pictures before meal.

Later on, went back to Jonker for that Melaka river boat ride!

And said bye bye at the entrance of Jonker street early at night as I have to be oncall the next day :(

Anyway, some shots of that beautiful night, with its big big moon.

Good night!

Waiting for next tour guide experience!

Well hidden from the construction building of Pulau Melaka, this piece of architecture is a nice spot to take pics. I wish I could have a wide angle lens so there are more to it. Usual sunsets would be the time of the day for a nice photo!

It is like that disenchanted circle. It repeats, and turns, and we are back to step 1 all over again.

You might think you are moving forward in god mode and god speed.

And then, you found yourself trapped in the same place, by the power which is not under your control, by the force which is forced upon you, by that circumstances where you don’t have the rights to change.

If everything is so wrong, I wonder, what keeps it all going on.

If you think that Bukit Cina cemetery is nothing more than a regular eerie place, try to change that idea.

I went there last time, it was in the morning, and it was indeed, quite eerie as there was no sun light. But this time, I venture there during the evening, when a lot of people are having their evening jogs, and even kids cycle up the hills, ignoring all the tomb stones and offerings. With that evening sun, even the tomb stones look warm and benign.

Put these into HDR, because can’t really resist the dramatic sky.

Would one day attempt to climb up there before dawn and see how it is like. I guess besides C4 ward of Melaka hospital, that would be the highest peak in Melaka.

Had wanted to visit the Taman Rama-Rama but when I drove all the way there, what I saw was just a construction site. I guess they are still managing. I wonder where is that old Taman Rama-Rama. Anyway, I was quite sceptical about the Taman Buaya actually. It is small, and well, there are lotsa crocodiles but they are all bored, hiding in the shades from the afternoon burning sun.

Air yang tenang, jangan disangka, tiada buaya.

I took loads of buaya/crocodile pics. But I guess not everybody is a fan of crocs. I like the eyes but I don’t really like the whole idea of this creature. They are kinda… well… ugly.

Haha.

And they have a small collections of snakes and lizards.

Nice? Hehe.

And I was surprise to find this big cage in the croc farm with some beautiful parrots, birds and ducks.

Like fake right?

But beautiful ducklings do exist, who would care to be a swan. LOL.

Would like to name this pic the 3 brothers. Very very colorful and cheerful creatures.

They even french kiss, tongued each other..

Of course, some 100 pics were taken. And I think these are some of the nice ones. Enjoy!

Happy groom.

I remembered responding to some statement, that ‘it is too risky’, ‘it is like gambling’. But..

Life IS a gamble.

We thought we are building something solid, yet when one fine day, when it all got blown away, I wonder what is left to be treasured. I wonder how many times fighting spirit could be regenerated. I wonder how many times things grow back to be the same, or better, or worse. I wonder whether anybody really cares about things. I wonder whether I care enough. I wonder whether what is really important and what is not. I wonder it is me and this world and this sun and the moon, or it is me and you and him and her and we and they who is important. I wonder what defines my existence. I wonder whether I existed. I wonder whether I really existed. I wonder whether it matters. Crap.

In this life, I’m that main character, and the sun rise because of me, and the moon shines because of me.

It is quite conditional.

If this is so not significant, then why it means so much to think like me and you and him and her and we and they. If it is not significant, then why we strive and fight and stand strong and continue to be stubborn.

And if it is significant, then it doesn’t make sense, because I do not exist in the mind and place and time. If it is significant, then why it doesn’t withstand the time. If it is significant, then why nothing is done.

There must be some meaning.

So it is a gamble.

Whether it ever existed.

Whether I ever existed.

I noticed I do not have that shiny shield and armor, like a soft shell crab. And yes, it is quite empty inside too.

Maybe when stronger wind blows, I might see my core.

Thank you for reading this crap post. Have a nice day.